In two days, 2018 will officially be another year in the books. Another year that was lived out and put away in my book of life. In my opinion, 2018 flew by and in a way it seems like just yesterday 2018 arrived. Yet, I’m actually really glad in spite of how it seems, 2018 is coming to a close. I have waited the past three years for 2019 to arrive! There’s so much I am looking forward to in 2019. 2019 marks this close of a huge chapter in my life as well as the beginning of a new one. Before a new year arrives, I like to take the time and reflect on the year that’s coming to an end. 2018 taught me many lessons and allowed me to realize things about myself.
In the beginning of 2018, I started out in a relationship and am ending the year in said relationship. I remember at the start of 2018, I wasn’t sure if it would work. I let the enemy fill me with a lot of doubt about said relationship. There were many days in the beginning of the year when I’d overthink and ask questions I’d never ask before. As the year went on, I learned to trust God and not let doubt, confusion or overthinking win. I’ve discovered being 5 hours away from each other stateside was actually a good thing. Far enough to miss each other yet close enough to still communicate when needed.
God showed me that distance can be a beautiful thing if you let it. When doubt, confusion and questions start coming, question them. Are these from God or the enemy? I don’t think God will ever make us doubt or be confused about something/someone to the point of stress, or sadness.
On a different level, God began to show me how to live a different way. A desire towards natural living began to spring up in my heart. After enduring unsanitary conditions during field problems, having to limit my self care due to missions and training, as well as being drawn to social media accounts who inspired me… I began to live more naturally. I implemented small changes in my life to inspire a more natural way to live. For instance, I bought an essential oil diffuse and invested in organic 100% therapeutic essential oils. I began making my own recipes for bath and beauty. Look for a re-brand of my blog coming up in 2019.
God showed me how to live and allowed me to realize how I want to live my life- more naturally, seasonally and sustainable.
I walked into 2018, thinking positive thoughts about it being “my year” and “the year I commit to my hobbies and change.” I can say 2018, I was more consistent then I ever have been… but still not as consistent as I’d like to be. I kind of walked into 2018, blindly without having a plan. Maybe that’s why I struggled to stick with my hobbies because I didn’t have a solid plan or routine. I would let field problems throw me off and put all this pressure on myself for when I got back… which resulted in little to no progress sticking to routine. What I’ve learned is life is about every day choices.
God showed me its fine to have plans, goals and dreams. Life is about day to day choices. What can I do today to get me closer to the person I want to ultimately be?
All in all, 2018 was an okay year. Nothing magnificent really happened and nothing terrible happened- and for that statement alone- PRAISE GOD. No matter how uneventful 2018 was… looking back I learned that life is never going to stop. It’s always going to continue. The clock is never going to stop, time is going to keep ticking by and I need to embrace every single day. The pressure I put on myself to become a different version of myself by the end of the year- is unnecessary.
God showed me life is about every day moments, every day choices… that ultimately define who we are.
With love and kindness,