Last week I wrote about how I lost my drive to continue writing because of how caught up I became in an “image.” I thought I had to have an Instagram account with pretty pictures for my words to reach others. I spent the last year really struggling with continuing to write because of this. Somehow I got out of it. If I’m honest though, it wasn’t on my own.
Throughout the past year, God has been my rock. He has been opening up my eyes and allowing me to see the truth. Overcoming constant comparison and the desire to form my talents like others hasn’t been the only thing I’ve overcome. I’ve also overcome the need to know everything. You see, I used to think I had my whole life planned out. I used to think I knew what was best. I used to think I knew where God was leading me.
After spending months of worrying and stressing… I realized lately, sometimes the only option is to surrender to God. Sometimes what He has for us is different than what we wanted for ourselves and that’s okay. It’s a hard pill to swallow at times and quite honestly it’s hard to put into words. I want to be more honest and authentic on here and truly share my story. It takes time though. So all I have for now is a short poem I wrote. Enjoy!
do not tell me the clock on the wall does not haunt you
do not tell me the tick ticking noise does not make your palms sweat
do not tell me you long for the next thing
do not tell me there isn’t one thing you aren’t saving up for
do not tell me there isn’t a dream vacation you long to go on
do not tell me you have so many desires but so much time to do them in
do not tell me time is not a factor in your life
we all have 24 hours a day, 7 days a week
do not tell me that simple truth doesn’t haunt you
do not tell me you are working on ignoring the clock because it is impossible
it’s always there tick tick ticking away
to remind us
life is short
live and embrace every moment
because the clock is always there
– L.A
Until next week, friends! 🙂
Perhaps it’s my age making me repeat the same thing over and over again…
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Lennart,
Thank you so much for the book recommendation. I will have to get it because you’ve recommended it to me a few times now.
Take care,
Laura
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Dear Laura,
I love this! You are wise and have come quite a bit on your pilgrimage.
I may have said it before, but I come to think about a really classic Christian book :
‘Abandonment to Divine Providence’ by Jean Pierre de Caussade’
I think you can get it from Amazon, and it is available free on the web somewhere.
In short :
Do what you have to do in your daily life, school, work, caring for Children/elderly etc. and God will take care of the rest!
Blessings
Lennart
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