Full circle

Last week I wrote about how I lost my drive to continue writing because of how caught up I became in an “image.” I thought I had to have an Instagram account with pretty pictures for my words to reach others. I spent the last year really struggling with continuing to write because of this. Somehow I got out of it. If I’m honest though, it wasn’t on my own.

Throughout the past year, God has been my rock. He has been opening up my eyes and allowing me to see the truth. Overcoming constant comparison and the desire to form my talents like others hasn’t been the only thing I’ve overcome. I’ve also overcome the need to know everything. You see, I used to think I had my whole life planned out. I used to think I knew what was best. I used to think I knew where God was leading me.

After spending months of worrying and stressing… I realized lately, sometimes the only option is to surrender to God. Sometimes what He has for us is different than what we wanted for ourselves and that’s okay. It’s a hard pill to swallow at times and quite honestly it’s hard to put into words. I want to be more honest and authentic on here and truly share my story. It takes time though. So all I have for now is a short poem I wrote. Enjoy!

do not tell me the clock on the wall does not haunt you

do not tell me the tick ticking noise does not make your palms sweat

do not tell me you long for the next thing

do not tell me there isn’t one thing you aren’t saving up for

do not tell me there isn’t a dream vacation you long to go on

do not tell me you have so many desires but so much time to do them in

do not tell me time is not a factor in your life

we all have 24 hours a day, 7 days a week

do not tell me that simple truth doesn’t haunt you

do not tell me you are working on ignoring the clock because it is impossible

it’s always there tick tick ticking away

to remind us

life is short

live and embrace every moment

because the clock is always there

– L.A

Until next week, friends! 🙂

3 thoughts on “Full circle

  1. Dear Laura,

    I love this! You are wise and have come quite a bit on your pilgrimage.

    I may have said it before, but I come to think about a really classic Christian book :
    ‘Abandonment to Divine Providence’ by Jean Pierre de Caussade’
    I think you can get it from Amazon, and it is available free on the web somewhere.
    In short :
    Do what you have to do in your daily life, school, work, caring for Children/elderly etc. and God will take care of the rest!



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